We’re fixing to come off our break soon…I figure we should be able to start right up with medication or a new protocol during my September cycle. I’ve called my RE and set up an initial consultation appointment. Yes, I was working with him prior to our break, but that was all off of referrals from my OBGYN. Now that we’re looking at possible IUI’s, etc., (and we went to him for ALL of my monitoring ultrasounds), it just makes sense to become his patient completely. I absolutely adore my RE and when he told me that he tends to be a more aggressive treater (is that correct? whatevs), I get excited cause that means he GETS SHIT DONE. ha. It sure was crappy though when the lady scheduling the appointment (set for August 20th) asked how long we’ve been trying to conceive: “It’ll be 3 years in September…so 2 years 10 months?” . Damn that number sure sucks. It’s crazy to think that most people, 7-8 couples, start trying right after their wedding and usually have a baby by their second anniversary. We’re going on our 3rd wedding anniversary, past our 6 year dating anniversary, and we don’t have any pregnancy to show for it. But, onward and forward.
One thing I think I might call back and ask about is a Pap. I haven’t had one in at least 2 years. When we first started treatments in October last year I asked my doctor if I should schedule one and she said, “We’ll just do one when we get you pregnant.” Well, DOC, that didn’t work out. I don’t think that it would help any, but at this point I would like to make sure the ol’ vajayjay is at her prime! We’ll see what the doc says….
As far as this break goes, I think it was fabulous. I went full force in to the treatments honestly believing that I was “crying wolf” and that I would be pregnant within the first month. Once the rose colored glasses were ripped off my face, I felt completely distraught. While I still face the pain of being childless almost everyday, I’m finding the strength I lost back in March. As much as I’m dreading the medication and constant prodding in my lady parts, and hoping that I don’t become the person I was a few months ago, I am going in with a clear head and a COMPLETE knowledge of what I face. Tonight I started yoga. While I laughed at myself a couple times, I really enjoyed it. I’m also going to look in to acupuncture…thankfully there is a place here in my little town so I don’t have to travel. I’m also going to keep up on my fitness that seems to clear my head…or just make me so exhausted I can’t think! With all of that, and the incredible support of my husband, I am very hopeful that soon we will have the baby we have hoped so long for :D